I used to be born or given to the sunshine, because the largely Hispanic townspeople would say, within the impoverished desert municipality of Barstow, California. My mom, Ruth, was younger and inexperienced; her marriage was already flaking away. I used to be her follow little one, and he or she did issues with me that on reflection, she mentioned, horrified her, though I think she was additionally secretly pleased with the best way we had managed. Typically she would put me in my playpen and take lengthy morning walks within the desert with our border collie, which not less than as soon as saved her from the fats desert sidewinders that hunt in sandy washes earlier than the onslaught of afternoon warmth.
My mom was an newbie naturalist. It was a vocation stimulated by her poetry-spouting father, a Swedish immigrant with a ardour for bird-watching. On her rambles by means of the close by Rainbow Basin, a website of torqued rock formations, multicolored strata, and canyons, she saved her eyes peeled. She made lists of flowers in addition to birds, and he or she picked up fossils, together with a bit of petrified camel rib. (This, earlier than the realm was designated a Nationwide Pure Landmark.) In her chicken books, images and descriptions of sighting places are accompanied by many checkmarks and dates. Like her father, she additionally made sketches of birds in situ and later, at dwelling, reworked them with coloured pencils. By the point she died, she had documented recognizing over a thousand chicken species together with, among the many rarer ones, each a Violaceous trogon and a harpy eagle in Costa Rica, a Kittlitz’s murrelet on a scree slope in Alaska, and the world’s quickest disappearing crane, the gray topped crane, within the Kenyan savannah. Alongside together with her chicken books, I inherited just a few pages of pocket book paper on which she had made, on considered one of her Mojave Desert hikes, rubbings of fossil footprints of prehistoric flamingos.
It was my mom’s ardour for the Mojave, her exuberance for the desert gentle, that spurred me to review geology in faculty after which discover and write about deserts—the Gobi, the Sahara, the Atacama, the Thar, the Taklamakan, the Chihuahua, and extra. I found that deserts drew from me a particular high quality of consideration; that my churning, judgmental considering light away because the huge, obvious sameness of the panorama diminished my sense of self-importance, and my physique and thoughts grew to become a single organ for listening. Not only for listening however for listening into. It fascinates me to seek out that throughout cultures, centuries, and continents people haven’t solely lived in deserts however have typically deliberately gone there in search of visionary experiences. In its severity, the desert can induce an accepting, meditative disposition. You possibly can’t struggle it.
A number of years in the past, on a visit to Rajasthan, India, I visited the Thar Desert, an enormous expanse of big shifting sand dunes that skirt Sambhar Salt Lake, a saline wetland that’s paradise for some ninety-seven chicken species. Hundreds of larger and lesser flamingos, many from Central Asia and Siberia, migrate to the Sambhar between October and February. I needed to attempt my luck.
As my driver and I headed west from the state capital, Jaipur, the crackly countryside started to stretch out, spiked with dying khejri and neem timber. Although the land was flat, from the automobile I caught occasional glimpses of the Aravali Mountains, dramatic exposures of folded ochre gneiss. As we handed by innumerable small villages, I attempted and didn’t make eye contact with the various giant Hanuman langurs, seated like sentries on store roofs or border partitions. Water buffalo outnumbered cattle. With two- and four-wheeled picket carts dragging alongside behind them, these huge cud-chewing dromedaries got here and went on market roads, led by males sporting, most of the time, white safas, which designate a household’s eldest male.
Apropos of nothing, my driver knowledgeable me that animals and people can perceive each other. After I mumbled my certified assent, he added, Animals don’t learn between the traces. You possibly can discuss to them plainly.
In lower than two hours we reached the city of Jobner and drove by means of its tumultuous central market. Carpet makers, jewelers, embroiderers, agricultural instrument sellers, and hand-block printers stood inside crowded retailers, their awnings drawn in opposition to the desert afternoon’s blaze. Variations of the identical lean, dirt-brown canine limped alongside the site visitors, skulked by means of bamboo scaffolding that fronted buildings underneath building, or sprawled unconscious on aspect streets. I used to be struck by the vivid darkish pink, orange, and yellow saris of the ladies and by their elaborate jewellery. Giant gold nostril hoops, earrings, bracelets, and gleaming hair bangles. Most of the native males hennaed their hair and wore silver rings on their fingers. Some had diamonds of their ears. In stark distinction to the dust-strewn, sun-blanched panorama, the Rajasthani apparel was dazzling.
After Jobner, we handed fields of millet husks and a tall-chimneyed brick-making manufacturing facility. Shrubs and jojoba timber dotted the arid panorama. Exterior raveled homes, ladies scrubbed dishes and cooking utensils with sand and ashes. Fewer males have been seen. It was normally ladies that I noticed herding goats and buffaloes munching dry vines within the culvert.
By the point we entered the outskirts of Sambhar Lake City, we’d been on the highway for greater than two hours. A scrap vendor was plodding behind his rickety cart. The motive force pulled over and requested him for instructions. As quickly as our automobile crossed a berm overlaid with railroad tracks, I may see, on the far aspect, white sand and dry lake beds. Doves perched on the phone wires, and orange dragonflies zoomed in broad arcs. Reasonably than the refreshing salt air of a seashore, the playa gave off a murky, vaguely chemical scent.
I used to be awake and primed for an expertise. For the following few gradual miles, nevertheless, that in depth dry lakebed was largely abandoned. Recognizing a bunch of ladies in pink saris, who have been strolling away from the highway alongside the highest of a levee between two dry salt pans, I requested the motive force to cease so we may ask them about flamingos. We stumbled out of the automobile, stretched somewhat, then hiked out towards the ladies, who have been now sitting underneath the one seen tree. Under its dry crust, silvered with rills of salt, the playa on which we walked squished like moist clay.
As soon as we’d crossed the water channel on a sketchy bridge of unsecured railroad iron, I noticed that there have been cattle past the ladies, farther out, partly hidden between levees. It was near noon, and many of the massive darkish beasts have been mendacity down. The ladies remained seated, watching us method. My driver defined that he didn’t converse Rajasthani, however he would ask them in Hindi.
Morning and night, the ladies answered him—that’s when the massive birds appeared. Solely within the early dawn or close to sunset.
I used to be heartbroken. The motive force needed to return the automobile earlier than night. I stared out throughout the playa; water was barely seen in opposition to a far shoreline of brief, chalky timber. No signal of flamingos.
We drove on with out luck. We handed ladies herding flocks of sheep, cattle kneeling within the warmth, a rudimentary faculty. We handed by means of the tiny village of Jhapok after which the tinier village of Korsina, the place half a dozen males have been arrayed on a concrete chaupal, the neighborhood hub, constructed across the trunk of a peepul tree. A flycatcher, alert within the tree, watched our automobile go by. Seeing indicators to the temple of Shakambhari Mata (the goddess of nourishment and an incarnation of Durga), I requested the motive force to take me there. Why not?
We eliminated our sneakers and ascended the steps to the temple. Its door was open, jambs marked with ruddy handprints, patterns of dots, and pink swastikas. On the middle of the temple’s vestibule, surrounded by smoking sticks of sandalwood and camphor, a gold-glazed ceramic lion, the goddess’s totem animal, stood going through an interior sanctum usual out of granite and intricately carved wooden.
Throughout the sanctum, the altar to Shakambhari Mata was embellished with wreaths of areca flowers. On the ground under the persimmon-faced goddess, a lion’s head jutted from the hem of a brown curtain. Heaped under the lion’s paws have been vetiver roots, tender coconut, bananas, and flowers—the presents of devotees. On the aspect altar, a stone bull—Shiva’s animal type—confronted a lingam strewn with orange petals whereas a carved determine of Hanuman, the heroic monkey-god of the Ramayana, regarded on.
As I paid homage, it occurred to me what number of Hindu gods are depicted as animals with human traits. I puzzled if these shared qualities instructed a conception of the world during which people have been thought of much less distinctive than they’re in Western tradition. And I assumed in regards to the custom of Tamil Sangam poetry, during which it was thought of unattainable to put in writing about human feeling as if it weren’t affected by the world round and in relation to that human. The Sangam poets believed that boundaries between interior and outer landscapes are porous, and that the last word aim of poetry is the dissolution of any cut up between self and world. Right here’s an instance from the poet Māmalātan (circa the primary century CE), translated by A. Ok. Ramanujan:
What She Stated
Don’t they actually have
within the land the place he has gone
such issues
as home sparrowsdense-feathered, the colour of fading water lilies,
pecking at grain drying on yards,
taking part in with the scatter of the high-quality mud
of the streets’ manure
and dwelling with their nestlings
within the angles of the penthouseand depressing evenings,
and loneliness?*
I put some payments into the donation field. The temple priest put pink kumkum marks on our foreheads and gave us a palmful of jeera sweet kernels. We exited, sucking on the candies, and wandered onto the viewing patio, the place an aged priest in a white sleeveless T-shirt, sporting silver rings on each finger, was sweeping up. My driver instructed him we had come to Sambhar Lake on the lookout for the flamingos. The outdated priest’s eyes lit up and he turned and pointed. Monitoring the trajectory of the priest’s finger into the gap, we noticed an extended white line of flamingos standing inside a strip of pure gentle. I reached for my binoculars.
Though it was already almost 3:00 PM, my driver agreed to attend, and I descended the temple steps to the mucky playa. Beginning out throughout the sloppy flats, I made my approach awkwardly as a marionette, lifting my knees excessive, stepping flatly. The mud glommed on to my sneakers, reeking and bacterial, then oozed from beneath its soles, revealing darkish algal undertones. All the things beneath me, I spotted, was alive.
Some twenty minutes handed, however the nearer I got here to the water, the farther it receded. It occurred to me that I used to be taking a look at a mirage. I lifted the binoculars once more. The water was there, and so have been the flamingos, transferring in groups, their heads up, rotating backwards and forwards, their heads down, skimming the water, which was chocked with coloration. There have been geese as nicely, darkish silhouettes tending to their very own form.
By then I used to be fearful that it will take me too lengthy to achieve the shore. It appeared no nearer than after I began out, though the temple on the hill behind me was tiny now. I began to jog, misplaced my breath, walked for some time, then jogged once more.
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The view from Sambhar Salt Lake playa again towards Shakambhari Mata Temple, 2020
The moist warmth of the playa swarmed me. I pulled my working shirt’s lengthy sleeves down over the tops of my palms to guard them from the solar. My breath was harsh in my throat, the air strafed with dusty evaporite. My sun shades saved slipping down the moist bridge of my nostril. Nonetheless, I didn’t look again. I jogged on, monitoring left, closing in on the rising clamor, pausing to choose my approach by means of mud zones that have been slimy with chicken lime and three-pronged tracks and pockets of foul water. In the end I got here close to.
There have been extra flamingos than I had imagined—tons of, possibly 1000’s unfold out throughout the lake, all concerned with each other, spreading their wings for just a few seconds at a time, twisting their muscular necks and preening. One stand after one other, mixing and remixing. Some have been on the mucky shore. Most circumambulated the shallow salt water, taking prolonged strides, mirrored within the water and throughout the moist mud. It appeared to me that their reflections weren’t merely copies of the unique chicken however one way or the other distillations of them. The truth is the extra I stared, my eyes fatigued by the glare from above and under, the extra the water extracted the substance of the flamingo into its gentle, rippling shallow depths, leaving above its floor a false flamingo, a type composed of uncooked, pink-streaked gentle, tugged into movement by the saturated double under.
Farther off, a number of the birds have been marching collectively in excited, targeted clusters, their lengthy legs like jointed metal rods. However whereas some, like these synchronized marching clusters, have been intent with goal, others stood round in small teams indifferently. Some courted and swam in pairs. I watched, rapt and exhilarated. Right here they have been—weird, beautiful birds, an entire society chattering, posing, flirting, grooming themselves, cleansing each other, transferring with the high-quality syncopation of flamenco dancers in teams by means of which emotions of communion, achievement, and worry certainly undulated.
It couldn’t be mere anthropomorphism to consider I used to be witnessing one thing acquainted of their shows, some measure of pleasure of their play. I discovered myself questioning whether or not between species there would possibly, in any case, be a continuum of interconnected relations whose nuances I couldn’t even think about. The flamingos have been listening to and watching me and I used to be listening to and watching them. We have been studying each other. How way back had chicken flight and birdsong been scored into the archaic human mind? Weren’t people, for that matter, having come later, those performing like birds? What if the continuity between species was so deep that all of us take part in a narrative of basic similarities?
As I watched, the principle stand of birds divided itself into a number of sub-stands. Within the one closest, every of the possibly 100 or so flamingos, as if some invisible director had introduced the time for its close-up, prolonged its neck as excessive as potential with the invoice pointing upward after which pivoted its head sharply backward and forward, projecting first one profile, then the opposite. Numerous flamingos stretched their necks backward, retaining the S form, and from that place rhythmically swiveled their heads.
In adjoining and extra distant stands, birds started to decrease their heads towards the water, their our bodies rocking ahead, tails cocked increased than their chests, as if practising a standard yoga place. Then every chicken raised its partially opened wings above its again, with the bend within the wing aimed down. Mirrored on the salt lake, the sky was each above and under; the innumerable flamingos have been doubled, their colours, ventral and dorsal, doubly intense. The swaying, pirouetting figures that prolonged throughout the broad, glowing sky-water have been symmetrical, like a Rorschach picture. Higher chicken and decrease chicken have been totally different facets of the identical chicken and iterated logarithmically, and all have been set enjoined, distinct, dancing inside a roiling dimensionless encompass of orange and pink chromatics.
I took one step nearer and without delay, tons of of birds took flight. Every of them, I imagined, was disturbed by me and so carried the impression of my type into the air, wheeling, whirling, lining up within the sky in opposition to the solar. I froze in place, spellbound, breathless. Watching them fly off was like letting go of a secret thread, one which linked me not simply to the flamingos however to the whole lot that was not me. Although they disappeared into the night sky, the thread hadn’t damaged; we have been nonetheless linked, or so I instructed myself. We’re all caught collectively within the curl of a wave rising from some widespread urgency.
