Kelly Clarkson acquired emotionally uncooked on stage 12 days earlier than the dying of her ex-husband, Brandon Blackstock.
Blackstock died on Aug. 7 from most cancers on the age of 48.
The Grammy winner and Blackstock have been married for seven years earlier than embarking on a seemingly messy divorce in 2020. The previous couple share two youngsters, River Rose, 11, and Remington Alexander, 9.
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In a heartbreaking video recorded by TikTok person @modestishottest4u, Clarkson will be seen tearing up a number of instances throughout a July 26 efficiency at her Las Vegas Studio Session residency. The second occurred whereas Clarkson was explaining to the viewers that she had modified the lyrics of her 2015 music “Piece by Piece” but once more.
“Compartmentalization,” Clarkson will be seen within the video jokingly telling herself as she wipes tears from her eyes.
After additional attempting to deflect from her emotions by playfully interacting together with her viewers, the daytime discuss present host admitted that she’s conscious that she’s modified the lyrics to “Piece by Piece” earlier than, however defined why she felt they wanted to be altered one final time.
“I’ve never rewritten a song more,” Clarkson mentioned. “And I probably never will. I wrote this song with a lot of hope, OK? And projection for happiness and better than what was happening. And then, well, life set in. And I had to change the lyrics.”
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When “Piece by Piece” was initially launched, the lyrics have been aimed toward Clarkson’s estranged father, and implied that Blackstock was a greater husband and mother or father than her dad.
Within the 2015 model, Clarkson sang of Blackstock:
“He’ll never walk away/ He’ll never break her heart/ He’ll take care of things, he’ll love her/ Piece by piece, he restored my faith/ That a man can be kind and the father should be great.”
Three years after her cut up from Blackstock, she adjusted the lyrics.
“I just walk away/ When they ask for money/ I take care of me ’cause I love me/ Piece by piece I restored my faith/ That a heart can still beat even when it breaks,” she sang.
The 2023 tweak appears to be a reference to Blackstock’s monetary requests throughout their divorce.
Throughout her efficiency caught on video final month, Clarkson instructed the viewers that her 2023 lyrics “sounded a little angry.”
“So, I just wanted to explain how it feels now,” Clarkson mentioned. “I’m 43. I’ve done some therapy, and I changed the lyrics now and I feel like it’s perfect now. I promise. I swear to God, I’m not gonna change it again.”
As Clarkson continued to clarify why she felt that her new lyrics are a extra “grown-up version” of her music, she broke down once more.
“I’m really trying to pull it together,” Clarkson mentioned as her voice broke. She then circled to wipe away her tears once more.
After some assist from her viewers, Clarkson lastly mentioned:
“Screw it, let’s just sing it. This is ‘Piece by Piece.’”
In Clarkson’s new model, she shared a extra sympathetic but agency message to Blackstock whereas reaffirming her “faith” in herself.
“I’m learning every day how to love me/ I let go of the shame that you taught me/ Piece by piece I restored my faith/ That a heart can still beat even if it breaks.”
Though Clarkson has made her causes for splitting with Blackstock clear, she had tried to stay considerably amicable with him for the sake of their kids.
The “American Idol” winner introduced earlier this month that she can be suspending her Las Vegas residency to be “fully present” for her two kids as a result of her “children’s father has been ill.” She added that she is “sincerely sorry to everyone who bought tickets to the shows.”
“I so appreciate your grace, kindness and understanding,” Clarkson mentioned on the time.
